Reminiscence

It's funny, how much memories can be stored in our mnemonic mind, and once in a while it surfaces right before us?

Everything that we've shared comes right into my mind every night. Till this day, I haven't really slept proper yet.

No matter how much we try to run from each other, we just can't hide. I still do read your blog, and realising you're gonna be sick again some time around the same time last year, gets me really worried. I just had that sudden urge to call you, but even after manually dialing your number, I just held back on pushing the "call" button. I realise it isn't my scene anymore....

Questions start popping in my head, "Would she want me to call? What if we start a fight again, even if I never meant to want to start one? What if I can't help to show her how weak I am again? What if she's still pissed with me? How will I be able to take to realise I don't mean anything to her anymore? What if she doesn't appreciate it and starts pushing me away again?......."

I guess no matter what I do, you'll still never see the good in me. See and believe that I'm truly different now.

All I can say is, take care of yourself, drink more water in this crazy weather. Start sleeping early and don't stay up too late...